How to Stay Sexually Connected During Infertility Treatment
Spontaneity is gone. During infertility treatment, desire is no longer the main reason for love making. Instead, clocks, thermometers, medications, ultrasounds and tests now govern when it is the best time to have sex. Infertile couples have sex to maximize fertility when ovulating, increase sperm counts, and do it in positions that better facilitate sperm to egg. While this amount of planning may be necessary to increase odds of conceiving, it takes a toll: Forty five percent of couples struggling with infertility treatment report that sex “by the clock” is stressful. Sex on demand can cause men to develop erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation. Women frequently lose desire and have sex without arousal simply to time it correctly.
Medicalization of sex. Couples suffer intimate invasions of their bodies, genitals, and even the details of their sex life. Their sex organs are tested and evaluated for functioning, often with procedures that hurt or even border on humiliation. Hormonal medications that increase ovulation, change the acidity of the vagina, or build the uterine lining often create mood swings that lower desire. At some point in this medical process, the body starts to viewed mechanically, as functional or not, and sexual intercourse is only good if there is a product resulting from it – a pregnancy. The process of helping a couple create a child, ironically, can be dehumanizing.
Changes in sexual definitions of the self. Research shows that women in infertility treatment often view themselves as more feminine if they ovulate in a month but less feminine on months without an egg release. Men can begin to feel less confident about themselves sexually if they are unable to create a child with sexual intercourse, regardless of whether it is due to his sperm count or not. Often when pregnancy results without sexual intercourse but through interventions like intrauterine fertilization or in vitro fertilization and implantation, couples often can view themselves as having failed sexually.
Acknowledge the crisis. Infertility usually happens within a young marriage or partnership and is often the first and unexpected test of the strength of their joint coping skills. Sexuality and emotional connection are intrinsically inseparable. The couple has to accept their path to pregnancy will be complicated and more mechanical than they might have hoped for, giving each other permission to talk about it and express their disappointment without false reassurances from the other in order to stay connected.
Guard their union against further intrusion. Couples might need to shield one other from hurtful comments or judgment from their families. Likewise, well-meaning people often make incredibly naïve remarks like, “As soon as you stop trying, you’ll probably get pregnant.” Be selective about who to reveal your plans to as you form your support system. It’s hard enough to endure month-after-month with no pregnancy, let alone if you have to report to an audience who is also wondering about the outcome of your sex life.
Separate intimate sex from baby-making. If you can, reserve your bed as the place to try to get pregnant, and make love for fun on the couch, on a rug in front of the fireplace or book a hotel room – anything more creative that relieves you of the “have to sex.” Try to have one pleasuring experience a month as a time to talk, touch, reconnect, and reassure each other of your love and desire without the pressure of an outcome.
Share your feelings. Don’t try to be strong for your partner. Be open about the worries in your head and ask about your partner’s fears. Couples who fall into a cycle of communication with one partner complaining or criticizing and the other defending or withdrawing are at risk for derailing both sex and their relationship. You may want to seek therapy to help become clearer communicators during this stressful season.